At the end of each year we reflect on the year gone by and plan for the one that is going to come. The last year ended on a good note – I started my own venture! However instead of planning for the targets to be achieved on the professional front in 2014, I had very insightful experiences as the year ended that have shaken my core beliefs and forced me to think & question the very basics. They were things that were my driving force, the values that I took pride in and beliefs that I guarded so close to my heart. So my year has not begun with any resolution but with a question…………….. WHO AM I?
It seems like three simple words but when I look at the mirror and ask myself who am I, not as a daughter, a sister, a wife, a friend, a professional but as a person? Am I independent of these roles that I play or have I enmeshed myself so much into these that I know myself as only these roles that play. I know my likes, dislikes, I also know my strengths & weaknesses and to an extent I am aware of my capabilities and blocks/fears. But what I didn’t know till now was that the certain beliefs, my virtues have become so much a part of me, and certain things have become so important that they had started defining me. So much so that when that area didn’t work well I would be so upset that I didn’t like anything about myself. When it became my identity I did not even get to know.
So for the New Year that is my promise to myself not to my family, not to my work but to discover myself.